Today has been a great day, yesterday was my last day of work until November for my pregnancy leave, my girlfriend is flying into town tonight and staying at my house and Tomorrow is my Baby shower! Things seem so surreal right now at this point because I never thought I would be where I am right now at this point in my life. Almost 27 years old, married for 10 months, almost 9 months pregnant, living in my own home and able to take 3 1/2 months off of work to be home with my family. I am just so grateful and blessed that God has come into my life and gave me all these wonderful gifts that I am so scared that I don't deserve them and that something will happen where it is taken away from me. Do I deserve happiness? This is a big question and a BIG STRUGGLE I have been going through my whole life. I think I do but I'm scared if I accept it it will all be taken away. Thanks for listening just needed to get somethings of my chest.