@momof1and1ontheway, he says that he sees my change but he saw my change the last time, however I had not addressed my inner issues at that time, I was only adding to them. Our relationship had serious holes that we did not tend to the last time and I took time to truly understand myself and grow. I am at the end of my pregnancy (know this child is not his but it doesn't bother him, we haven't been together since March of 2014) I can't even begin to explain how much I love him but I feel like maybe I owe it to him to let him go but I know it is going to be one of the hardest things I've ever done. We lived with each other for a couple years, made a home and life together and had someone uproot us because of jealousy of our happiness. (His parents disagreed with us living together without marriage for religion, my ex best friend stole their number from my phone and called them) I had to move far away and that sent me into a depression where I had to hit true rock bottom to be able to snap out of it. I snapped out and we started to talk again and I found out I was pregnant and before I found a way to tell him a mutual friend accidentally told him and he got upset. I backed down for a while and contacted him after a few months ever since we've been talking back and forth and seeing each other when we can (I don't have a license and his car was acting up) then he started backing out recently and then it got better and then he had a birthday and then Friday had a party for his birthday and was nearly non-existent for a couple days. Then this morning I apologized if I was coming off too much and he dropped the ball that he doesn't want hurt me but he can't afford to get hurt again and he doesn't want anyone to get hurt if he meets someone

Well maybe if he sees a real change, It will be different? @adrienneerinne27

@momof1and1ontheway, this would be our third time
I have tried to explain the work through but it's not as simple in his head.

I mean if you truly love him, let him know you are willing to work on yourself for him and work through the stuff together. It's better to try then always think back like "what if"