Wide awake trying to give myself a back massage. Ha! Not working. Princess is knocked out after she…

Wide awake trying to give myself a back massage. Ha! Not working. Princess is knocked out after she made sure the pain was worse first. I love my baby and I would do anything for her. The closer I get to my due date, the more I'm considering an epidural. I had one with my twins because my labor stalled. This time, I wanted to be as natural as possible. My fibromyalgia however is giving me second thoughts. The pain I'm in everyday is actually making me look forward to pain relief during labor. I've never been that type of person so I know I'm suffering. It's my baby, my experience, and I can do whatever is best for us. No guilt required. Right?