Period is due in 3 days (thinking about 30 days as a standard as I have an irregular period) Tested twice. Once almost two weeks ago and one this morning. Both NEGATIVE. I still have to wait, I could be pregnant or maybe not and my brain and body are playing a very evil game making me feel like something is happening.

But each NEGATIVE is like a knife in your uterus saying: you can't, you're empty, you won't be a mother, you're not a real woman, you? you can't bring life to this world.

It hurts. It hurts when you're NOT and when YOU ARE pregnant and your hormones are not strong to paint that little line we are all looking forward to see that fills our hearts of joy. Just to add a sprinkle of pain and make you taste the defeat and sorrow that Misery always loves to spread so willingly.