Anytime. I been in your shoes 😘

You're welcome anytime hope you feel better 👍

@ak16, I'll definitely do that. I can't wait till she is here. Three weeks left. @kcal12 and thank you both very much for listening. It makes me feel better just getting it off my chest. It really does mean a lot

If you have a walking track or park that would be something for you and baby. I could walk forever when I have music and a stroller to push lol

@ak16, I'll have to look into that. It will probably help a lot. I sometimes just get stuck and I don't know what to do to escape my mind. I do need to find something calming to focus on.

Well if u ever need to talk I'm willing to listen.

Maybe you should start a tv series, new gaming app or find a new hobby to learn, that helps me sometimes. I learned how to make bows and barefoot sandals for my girls and it helped me zone out and it was me something I did for myself and liked and no one could take it that might make you feel a little better for the times he isn't there.

@kcal12,

@ak16, thank you and no I don't want to go back on medication. I was on a lot of antidepressants and I honestly just want to do it myself. If I get really bad again I know when I will need to go. I think it is probably the hormones making it the worst of everything right now. You are right baby is my number 1 priority which is why I am taking it one day at a time to just get through it because I know tomorrow will probably be better.. Thank you

Thank you. I had a therapist but I stopped going. I just try to do the best I can to get through each day. It's just a bad night....I'll be fine. I usually talk to my fiancé but he is out. He has his own issues to deal with and I just so happen to end up like this while he is gone trying to deal with his mental stuff. I feel like if I try to bother him with my mind then I will just end up setting him off or making it harder for him to deal with his own. 😔

Have you talked to you doctor about how those old thoughts come back, maybe she could suggest a group or counseling? I'm not a person that preaches counseling but I know how it feels to feel as if you have no one or that you're alone. And that might make it easier than bottling it inside because that's not good for anyone. Crying has a lot to do with hormones. But no matter what your baby will always be there for you. And you need to show her you will always be there for her. When I get sad I try to tell myself it could always be worse, this isn't as bad as it may seem right now, I will get through this. 😊 try to stay positive baby will be here soon

Sounds like me my mind has been racing about so many things fears financial things just thoughts about how my life is gonna change so much I started talking to my fiancé and parents and feel so much better I see you say you have no one to talk to have you thought about a therapist or hey I live in Anaheim to if u just need to talk I'm a good listener

@ak16, thank you

I just can't stop crying and I have no one to talk to.

Being extremely depressed. I've delt with it for years and now it is more on and off. Tonight is just a bad night I guess....two years ago I tried to kill myself. Tonight I just can't stop thinking about how I wish it would have worked and why didn't I just give up so I wouldn't feel this way. I would never try again I have a baby girl to look forward to and to take care of and I couldn't ever do that to her. I just wish the thoughts and feelings would go away. I feel so alone and scared and idk what to do about them. @kcal12

Well if you need to talk or ever want to vent I'm here. Might sound odd but I'm a good listener 😊

What kind of thoughts

@ak16,

I don't even know anymore. But in the end I have to be I have no choice but to be oksy

You okay