Before this baby I am expecting about 2 years I want to say I started having panic attacks I didn't know what it was before but I ha e a 9 year old and I thought was going to die before I was diagnose w severe anxiety so I started thinking more and more about my son and now that I am prego and I am going to have another baby I think about how I need to stay strong for my kids. And I always tel babe I need to stay in this world for my kids. Even if daddy is here there is nothing like mommy protecting over her kids. I totally get you.