I am so conflicted when it comes to this maternity leave! :/ I'm supposed to be taking it this Friday unless I want to push it back a week or so. I'm already 1cm dilated, which I know isn't much at all, but I'm scared and nervous. if this was my second or third baby I'd be all for working until I deliver. but this is my first. I don't know what to expect. my mom never had labor. I also think it'd be different if I was able to sleep longer than 3-4hours at night. I know I'm hardly going to get sleep once my son is born, but it'll be slightly different as I won't be tossing and turning from the acid reflux/heartburn, having to get up in the middle of the night just to pee, or simply because I'm uncomfortable. even though I'm able to sit down when needed to at work now it doesn't stop the intense lower back pain or the occasional cramp in the side. if I take my maternity leave this Friday, I'd still have one last paycheck coming for me. my man is super close to landing a job as he's been getting calls to come back and interview. my man and sister think I should keep it where its at and just relax my poor body until the little man comes. my mom thinks I should work up until my water breaks...I think she's nuts for suggesting that...and my dad thinks I should give it just one more week.

its already going on 2am and I got to be up by 7am in order to make it to work on time. :/ I just don't like this