Need some advice... My boyfriend and I are not doing okay and I don't want to be in this relationship. It's not that I don't love him, we have been through a lot together and I care about this man but I am not in love with him and staying in this relationship I have become really angry and having PPD on top of it all... I have three reasons I have stayed and I don't know what to do....
1. His grandfather who we both adore could pass at any day. (Lung, liver and bone cancer, stage four)
2. I don't want our son to be affected by us not being together and I don't know how to do this in a healthy way so he is safe and secure. (4 months old)
3. He's not exactly a stable person... He told me when we were together for only two weeks that he would kill himself if we ever broke up and he took that back when I said that wasn't fair of him to say... But now with his grandpa I just am afraid something will happen....
I am really lost and I don't know what to do. I think I've know that this isn't working since before I found out I was pregnant and I so badly want this to work but it's just not. And it's affecting my ability to be the mom I should be... I'm frustrated and sad. I told him about a month ago that I wanted out and then we found out about his grandpa and then boom... We were back together. What do I do? Do I wait until after his grandpa has passed and he's had time to recover? Do I leave now and hope for the best? ( this option feels right to me but I feel extremely guilty even thinking it) I don't know what to do... Can you be a single mom and have a happy baby? Will he be damaged?