who lives separate from their BD ? is it harder? just the thought makes me feel abandoned & alone…

who lives separate from their BD ? is it harder? just the thought makes me feel abandoned & alone I'm due any day & he decides to play roomie w his cousin while I'm at my moms , I feel like I'm being set up to do this solo & if so I rather end it now , am I overreacting tho ? my moms is FULL of ppl & we couldn't get any apts we applied too. Ido how to feel .