Here's my breastfeeding strory:
I just balled my eyes out😭😭 in pain and frustration. I am beyond upset ..... I fucking hate breastfeeding now
I now understand moms that give it up! B/C of C-Section me and my baby had no skin on skin right after birth...once we finally did he didn't latch 😔 but the next day he latched on but with nipple shield. Since then I've been feeding him w/nipple shield, it's been a month now however in the meantime I did try and try to latch him on bare nipple and it worked few times. But he's too hungry and doesn't want to keep trying so gets frustrated and I don't want that so I put the shield back on. First off it's very annoying and challenging to have this shield on as each move he makes he knocks it over, then we gotta put it on again so there is frustration just there already....then a problem with unlatching....which I just found out it is because I have a fast let down so the shield also fills up with milk and when he unlatches the milk gets spilled all over us, gotta put it back on, same thing then! So my son gets frustrated with that and keeps unlatching until normal flow starts. Then when finally that happens my nipples hurt soooo much so then I have to keep unlatching him. And this is either cause of his latch or also cause my nipples get Sooo hard 😣 but that doesn't change so I sit thru the pain so he can finally feed. And then I cry cause it's hurts. This is all happening more thru night feedings...so on top that I'm so sleepy so my frustration is fast too. And cause until last night I didn't know what the problem was with constant unlatching so imagine I'm
Trying to feed my baby and I know he's hungry but he appears to not want to eat! I just wanted to give it up right then and there! But as I said month in and we still keep trying. I used to dream about breastfeeding my baby when I was pregnant and I couldn't wait for that experience, also so much cause of bonding with my baby b/c I was so upset that I had to have c-sec and I couldn't bond with my baby right away...so i said to myself well we'll bond over breastfeeding and now that's not working either. I am seriously you guys beyond heartbroken and upset WHY IS THIS ALL HAPPENING TO ME!!!!! I feel like I haven't yet enjoyed my baby the way I should and supposed to cause of all I end up doing is draining myself trying to feed my baby then finally when he's fed and all I need to catch some sleep so then I sleep but if baby is awake then my husband is enjoying a happy baby while I constantly feel frustrated and clearly frustrating my baby too. Oh and another thing is the snacking feeding so then my baby feeds short periods of time passes out and then wakes up in any 1.5-2 hrs to eat again cause he didn't get full completely. Or he swallowed a lot of air too that make feel like he's full then he had lots of gas pains so dealing with that too. I don't want to keep frustrating my baby 😔I now understand moms who do give up breastfeeding and as a matter of fact almost all the girls I know who had c-section had big BF issues and have eventually sooner than later given up! I'm seriously heartbroken and I donno if I have patience left to deal with BF. Oh and I HATE pumping, but I feel like I should at least do that but that's double the work. Feed then pump😩now all I feel like m doing around the clock is frustrate feed or snack feed! And none of this happens when we bottle feed him. Especially my husband gets all excited cause he gets to feed him then, and after that he has a happy baby. He eats his amount no fuss at all 😏
Katie Raggins·Мама дочки-младенца
Thank you, glad your staying strong
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