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Lili Nessa
dovejazz
Lili Nessa·Мама сына (10 лет)

Here's my breastfeeding strory:

I just balled my eyes out😭😭 in pain and frustration. I am beyond upset ..... I fucking hate breastfeeding now

I now understand moms that give it up! B/C of C-Section me and my baby had no skin on skin right after birth...once we finally did he didn't latch 😔 but the next day he latched on but with nipple shield. Since then I've been feeding him w/nipple shield, it's been a month now however in the meantime I did try and try to latch him on bare nipple and it worked few times. But he's too hungry and doesn't want to keep trying so gets frustrated and I don't want that so I put the shield back on. First off it's very annoying and challenging to have this shield on as each move he makes he knocks it over, then we gotta put it on again so there is frustration just there already....then a problem with unlatching....which I just found out it is because I have a fast let down so the shield also fills up with milk and when he unlatches the milk gets spilled all over us, gotta put it back on, same thing then! So my son gets frustrated with that and keeps unlatching until normal flow starts. Then when finally that happens my nipples hurt soooo much so then I have to keep unlatching him. And this is either cause of his latch or also cause my nipples get Sooo hard 😣 but that doesn't change so I sit thru the pain so he can finally feed. And then I cry cause it's hurts. This is all happening more thru night feedings...so on top that I'm so sleepy so my frustration is fast too. And cause until last night I didn't know what the problem was with constant unlatching so imagine I'm

Trying to feed my baby and I know he's hungry but he appears to not want to eat! I just wanted to give it up right then and there! But as I said month in and we still keep trying. I used to dream about breastfeeding my baby when I was pregnant and I couldn't wait for that experience, also so much cause of bonding with my baby b/c I was so upset that I had to have c-sec and I couldn't bond with my baby right away...so i said to myself well we'll bond over breastfeeding and now that's not working either. I am seriously you guys beyond heartbroken and upset WHY IS THIS ALL HAPPENING TO ME!!!!! I feel like I haven't yet enjoyed my baby the way I should and supposed to cause of all I end up doing is draining myself trying to feed my baby then finally when he's fed and all I need to catch some sleep so then I sleep but if baby is awake then my husband is enjoying a happy baby while I constantly feel frustrated and clearly frustrating my baby too. Oh and another thing is the snacking feeding so then my baby feeds short periods of time passes out and then wakes up in any 1.5-2 hrs to eat again cause he didn't get full completely. Or he swallowed a lot of air too that make feel like he's full then he had lots of gas pains so dealing with that too. I don't want to keep frustrating my baby 😔I now understand moms who do give up breastfeeding and as a matter of fact almost all the girls I know who had c-section had big BF issues and have eventually sooner than later given up! I'm seriously heartbroken and I donno if I have patience left to deal with BF. Oh and I HATE pumping, but I feel like I should at least do that but that's double the work. Feed then pump😩now all I feel like m doing around the clock is frustrate feed or snack feed! And none of this happens when we bottle feed him. Especially my husband gets all excited cause he gets to feed him then, and after that he has a happy baby. He eats his amount no fuss at all 😏

28.05.2015
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camillesmom
Katie Raggins·Мама дочки (10 лет)

Thank you, glad your staying strong

19.08.2015 Нравится Ответить
dovejazz
Lili Nessa·Мама сына (10 лет)

@camillesmom, thank you mama! Oh a lot has changed since. I actually wrote up the BF update and was gonna post it it was ready during BF week but I got caught up and didn't even show up here hehe. I have it on my note pad I'm gonna post it now. Thanks for such support. Sorry to hear your struggles and so glad you're ok and e/thing still went well.

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camillesmom
Katie Raggins·Мама дочки (10 лет)

Keep your head up, you can do it, I had a c-section and horrible complications where I almost didn't make it, and my daughter is 9 months and still breastfeeding, I was like you on the beginning very painful and almost gave up, I stuck with it and we have made it almost 10 months, I plan to have her weaned or staying to wean her at a year, I still to this day don't really enjoy it (probably sounds bad) but I do it cause I know it's healthier for Camille. Might add that she now has 2 teeth now and still breastfeeding! Stay strong and I know you can do it

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dovejazz
Lili Nessa·Мама сына (10 лет)

@helpedbytmh, oh that's awesome girl! Wow props to you. It's hard when u don't have support. My hubs would say should we just give him the bottle if he sees me stressed BF in the beginning then we had a talk. Ugh men don't get it! Maybe I should make an appointment with one.

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helpedbytmh
helpedbytmh·Мама дочки (10 лет)

wen I had my baby, the hospital had a lactation consultant come in and help me with bf everyday I was there. I call her anytime I need help or some encouragement. im the only person ever in my family to exclusively breastfeed, so the women in my family can only understand but so much, so keeping in contact with a lactation consultant is helpful. I would def suggest talking to one. some even do free home visits so that they can better help you

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dovejazz
Lili Nessa·Мама сына (10 лет)

@helpedbytmh, that's what gets me thru as well thinking and hoping it will get better & easier. I think it's even harder cause of sleep deprivation 😩 thanks mama! I hope it gets easier for you too! I have but only once b/c of nipple shield yet we didn't even touch topic on NS nor this. I hadn't this issue early on. Im annoyed at appointments... But maybe I should. Have you? Anything helpful?

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dovejazz
Lili Nessa·Мама сына (10 лет)

@jadien2010, oh that makes sense! Thank you 💕

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helpedbytmh
helpedbytmh·Мама дочки (10 лет)

I had my baby vaginally and was allowed skin to skin contact and I'm having the same issues youre having 3 weeks into it but wats helping me is that it'll get easier eventually. I could go on and on abt the issues I'm having but I won't because I'm sure you already know but stay strong mama we were built for this! Also have you tried talking to a lactation consultant?

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jadien2010
Mariah·Мама четверых детей

they do cry at first but you figure it out and can pump before they get hungry. I pumped once my supply came in so he was a few days old it doesn't really matter. It was to even out the supply so they weren't so engorged that's why I pumped when he was hungry that way they would be used to when he was ready. I really hope it helps and you can find some relief😊

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dovejazz
Lili Nessa·Мама сына (10 лет)

@kase.a.face, Awh m sorry to hear that! That must have been heartbreaking for you :( I guess you went thru them struggles too then. Ughh I'll try my best and my all to succeed. Yes I've tried few times but I probably did it at the wrong time when breasts are engorged and that was challenging too. It's just always something and when it isn't I just let him finally feed in peace however that is with shield laying down together whatever then you know cause it's Sooo exhausting 😩😩

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dovejazz
Lili Nessa·Мама сына (10 лет)

@jadien2010, thats definitely giving me another hope! I kept saying it will get better and soon we gonna ditch this stupid shield but then other stuff an issue. But if I pump first he will be crying so much hungry and I can't let him cry 😔 did u pump for 2 weeks right when he was born?! Or I guess it doesn't matter I can start now. So something to do with evening out the supply? 😕 my goal is to BF at least a year! I really want that so bad! Thanks so much for your encouraging words ❤️

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kase.a.face
kase.a.face·Мама подростков

@dovejazz I would give anything not to have given up on my first born. and my second couldn't breast feed because she didn't have the roof of her mouth. you can do this momma. just remember it gets easier. have you tried the football hold?

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dovejazz
Lili Nessa·Мама сына (10 лет)

@kase.a.face, I keep saying that to myself each day! I can do this, let's go day by day. Ha! I didn't even know that however I did try to do that too but my nipples get hard then I can't latch him on also breasts get engorged & I try different feeding positions. It all fails. Stupid nurses at hospital recommended me the shield and never have they said that ughh and a friend of mine fed like that for like first couple of weeks with shield 😏😖😣 thanks for the encouragement though

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jadien2010
Mariah·Мама четверых детей

I didn't have a c section but I did have problem breastfeeding my first daughter so much so that I gave up. I also have a fast let down. but I have learned a few thing over the last 2 babies. with my son I exclusively pumped for 2 weeks when he was hungry and then would bottle feed him the milk. once my supply evened out and they weren't so huge I went back yo breastfeeding and successfully breastfed him for 1 year. also with a fast letdown you can pump first until it slows a little bit and then let him attach then he won't have the problem your boobs being too full or getting too much air with it coming out too fast. I really hope things work out for you. I know how hard and frustrating it can be💕

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kase.a.face
kase.a.face·Мама подростков

keep up with it. I know it's hard but you can do it. also a shield is only supposed to be use to get a good latch for a couple minutes then remove the shield and let him latch. it's painful and what not but it will be worth it

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