@sgtpeppertheory, it's so hard to push yourself to keep going while constantly fighting a battle with yourself. I'm so tired of it. @cuety83, I wasn't trying to be rude as far as physical disabilities, but I've seen so many people with them that are still so positive about life and doesn't let it stop them and I just wish I could get a taste of that experience. Right now I wish I were dead and I'm really not that bad off, but this mentality makes me feel that way no matter how much I try to fight it. That's what I meant and I'm truly sorry for the things you are going through.

im sorry you feel that way but im half cripple, and someday will lose my leg and the pain and anxiety it causes me everyday makes me insane! Its hard not being able to do things physically that your mind wants you to do but your body won't. Hope you get better soon, what I have I was born with and it will only deteriorate my health as time goes on. Im a registered nurse, and it kills me knowing someday I won't physically be able to do the job I love so much...

I know exactly what you are talking about girl. truly is the worst.