so I decided to just let go of trying to be a family with my child's father. I can't take his verbal and mental abuse. I love him so much, but if he can say the things he dose to me.. then he obviously doesn't love me. and I can't make him love me neither. he makes me feel so low and worthless. he tells me im nothing and ill never be anything. he constantly tells me about other girls, and makes me feel so insecure and ugly. i just cant pretend anymore like this doesn't hurt and destroy me. i would never want my sons to grow up and think its okay to treat women this way. I just got to let him go... and I breaks my heart.