I understand , men don't understand what they do can stick with us for a life time . karma will kick him in the ass just takes time one day you will find someone who gets your attention and never leaves you then he will know what he messed up for someone who cared about him and he will lose time with his daughter

@alainalovesmommy, it's just he took off. He promised that he was coming back and that we were going to be a family. He left end of December and was supposed to come back mid-January. Then family stuff happened with his grandfather so he said he'd be back mid-late February and I said that was fine. Then he stole from me and cheated on me twice. Then he called like not even a week ago and was all "Come out to California and we can be together." Meanwhile he still has a girlfriend, one of the girls that he cheated on me with, that he tried to hide. It's just, I know he's awful and never going to change and he doesn't deserve me or his daughter, but I'm torn between missing him and wishing that he would suffer the most extreme pain possible. I'm just tired of being so heartbroken and hurt.

I know that feeling , you aren't alone and I'm here if you need to talk