I turned 33 weeks today so I have 49 days to go (unless I get induced then sooner) and last night it hit me. l'm having a baby lmao I know it sounds crazy of course but reality finally hit me and I couldn't stop crying. I already have a 4yr old so I think it's just the thought of having to raise two that scares me a little.
so it just hit me that I have 11 weeks left to go
Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no, his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me and did something else with an other girl.... and it's 10:51 am now and he hasn't texted me at all. and after he dropped me off I texted him saying what I felt and nothing. I don't know if I'm over reacting or what or what should i do. do i wait until he text me?
I have been trying so hard to be calm, and nice. This morning though, my fiancès son decided to spit at me and hit me. This is constant with the hitting, the spitting is new. We've both tried sitting and talking to him, time outs, cry it out, try to avoid spanking as much as possible but it has happened. No form of discipline works with him. He hits me, he hits his dad, he hits my son. I'm so afraid of what's going to happen come May when the baby is born. Is he going to try and hurt our baby? What's going to happen? We've both stuck with following the same discipline routines, and sticking with what he or I say. I don't know what to do. I'm so frustrated, I'm so broken. I just want to cry and hide.
OK MOMMIES! ITS TIME! The doctor called and said I have preeclampsia so I got rushed to labor&delivery; at 7pm. I have a tube in me that'll be here all night and in the morning they will use pitocin! Hopefully I deliver by tomorrow. PlZ pray for me!!! 1st baby so I'm super nervous and don't know what to expect! Here it goes!...
