Really contemplating starting something new. Don't get me wrong, I love my fiancé/bd (whatever you want to call him) dearly but he has done me wrong so many times. Like at this point it feels so weird even acknowledging that we're in a relationship again. I feel like it's only right if I go enjoy myself with other people for a while (after the babies are born of course). Does this make me a bad person though? He's made it clear that "neither of us are going anywhere" and that we're in this forever, but it just doesn't feel the same anymore..