I have such an uneventful life. My family isn't close and I don't make friends easily because of…

I have such an uneventful life. My family isn't close and I don't make friends easily because of anxiety. I'm also extra emotional today on top of the usual mental health struggles. Oh man, I guess I'll just go eat something. I wish getting myself anywhere close to happiness wasn't such a difficult journey to a destination that I may never even reach. I'd hate to live my whole life with this, just getting through each day and never really living.