I feel bad. One of the reasons I decided to go on with this pregnancy is nor because I was trying to conceive and wanted to become a mom, not because I love her father but because I don't believe in abortion. I feel bad because I see moms up here who are genuinely happy and are enjoying their pregnancy and have support from their SO and I don't feel like that at all. I mean I'll have moments of excitement, but its short lived when I realize my reality. I'm just praying things will change when she comes