Can't believe 5 months ago I brought this amazing beautiful human being into this world. I love you…

Can't believe 5 months ago I brought this amazing beautiful human being into this world. I love you so much. I wish I can go back and experience these 5 months all over again. I wouldn't change anything though. I just dont want to accept the fact my son is really growing up so quick. Even though labor was hell and ended up getting a c section. I would do it all over again. The only worst part was thinking my son wasn't going to make it because his heart rate kept dropping. I couldn't keep my eyes off the monitor. I felt so exhausted once it was time for my c section. I remember after all my pain went away, I felt so weak, and my eyes kept shutting. The drs told me to just go ahead and sleep. But I was determined to stay awake and hear my babys first cry. I cried because I was so terrified after I started feeling all the pressure and hearing all the noises. I really couldn't believe my stomach was cut open. I remember telling my bf please talk to me, when he didnt talk to me for 5 seconds, it felt like an hour. He kept trying to calm me down with tears rolling down his face. Then finally, We heard our baby cry. My bf and I looked at each other and finally cried tears of JOY ! When they brought him over so we can see him. I just kept saying my baby, my baby. Oscar and I looked at him then each other and couldn't believe that was OUR baby, because he was tooo damn cute. lol After they took him away, Oscar left with him. I didn't sleep one minute while in recovery. I was going crazy not knowing how my baby was. After a nurse told me he was in NICU. I didn't have my phone with me to get ahold of my bf and I couldn't just get up and leave since I couldn't move the bottom half of my body. After a long stressful hour, my bf came and showed me all the pictures he took of our baby. And almost 6 hours later, I was finally able to hold my baby boy. I thank god for blessing me with the best blessing in the entire world. I love being this awesome babys mother. He completes me. His smile, his laught melts my heart. I love you papas. 11.29.14 ❤️ Sorry for the long story, and yes I'm in tears right now.