I think I've decided to let my doc sweep my membranes today. So my son will be here today!

December IUI

So our IUI is happening today. God willing, my husband had to provide a sample at home this morning. I'm so nervous that I didn't get the sample to them in time, they told me 20-30 mins, we live exactly 20 mins away.

Trigger. Lost baby

Went in for my 20 week check up and found out our son had passed away. Nothing was wrong, my pregnancy has been going great. I'm so numb right now. I'll he delivering him later this week. I don't want to do this. I don't want to do this. Not before Christmas. How am I'm going to tell my kids?? My dear sweet baby boy. Why did this happen?

Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no,

his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me...

20 mins after my appt time and I'm still waiting to see my doc this is BS I have things to do