Trigger. Lost baby

Went in for my 20 week check up and found out our son had passed away. Nothing was wrong, my pregnancy has been going great. I'm so numb right now. I'll he delivering him later this week. I don't want to do this. I don't want to do this. Not before Christmas. How am I'm going to tell my kids?? My dear sweet baby boy. Why did this happen?

So I keep feeling these lil sharp pains on my right side. You do get pains like that before you start your period right.? Remember I had that dark brown spotting for a few hours last month on the 22. My period suppose to start today.

MY BABY GiRL iS HERE. CRAZY I WAS SUPPOSED TO BE iNDUCED TODAY BUT BABY GiRL DECiDED TO COME ON HER OWN. WATER BROKE @ 5:30AM CONTRACTiONS WHERE BACK TO BACK GOT TO THE HOSPiTAL AT 6:30 WAS DiLATED TO A 7. THEY BROUGHT ME TO LABOR AND DELiVERY @ 6:50 I GOT CHECKED HER HEAD WAS LiTERALLY RiGHT THERE .. PUSHED HER OUT iN TWO PUSHES HAD HER AT EXACTLY AT 7AM.. I'M SO BLESSED ❤️

Checked in at 4am february 1st.. started my pitocin drip at 5. I was 3cm dilated when i checked in. Things were progressing pretty slowly until my doctor broke my water at 7 am. I got my epidural done when i was 7 cm dilated, my nurse came in to check me and said baby was in plus 1 station. From there it went rather quickly, once my cervix was complete, she did practice pushes with me, i did 3 practice pushes with a few contractions and she said not to practice push anymore because baby was crow...

Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no,

his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me...