My baby just turned 3 weeks today... I can't even enjoy being a mother, how sad is that? My baby's father and I started our relationship based off of sex and alcohol... Great way to start things, huh? We don't belong together but I've been trying for the sake of my son. We keep trying but it's just not working anymore. I try to forget how miserable he's made my pregnancy and all of the horrible things he's called me. I try to forget how miserable I made him too. I love him but I'm just not in love with him anymore. He's told me over and over that I won't get full custody of my son, but later admitted that I actually would. He contradicts himself so much. He's a good dad but we aren't anywhere near compatible anymore. &&& Now he's packing his stuff, leaving and taking my baby. MY FUCKING BABY. I'm going to puke.