Over a month old now... I just wanted to talk to all the moms here about the moment after birth. It's true that some women experience an overwhelming sense of love for their baby immediately after seeing them... But the thing is is that... I didn't... I loved him and I found him cute... But I never had this crazy rush of emotions that changed me in a moment. In fact it took me two weeks to really feel that kind of emotion. It's not that I didn't love him... I just didn't fall head over heels right away. And that sent me so far into a deep dark hole that I hate myself. I thought I had failed as a mom, that i was doomed, that I'd somehow hurt my baby. I wanted to talk about thus because my postpartum depression was centred around my failure to feel overwhelmed after birth. I just want everyone to know that it's okay to not feel it right away. You haven't failed, your not a bad mom, it just takes a little time sometimes, and there is nothing wrong with that... It's normal!!!!