generally, I'm a happy person. however, when I sink into my depression its like I'm drowning in it.

@delilahsmommy2015 I've been diagnosed with depression for most of my life and some days it really hits me hard. I've been suicidal in my past but it hasn't gotten to that point yet tonight. I just started working and my paycheck was for $119 and I've already spent $90 of that. I don't get paid again until the 13th. and then my boyfriends brother just told me he hopes my baby dies :'(

@delilahsmommy2015, I like that saying of 'character building'. It's all about how you look at things. @14emathews I know it's hard to be positive with depression, I have it too. But I just keep thinking about how I'm gonna get thru it. Being optimistic has helped me. I'm glad your not suicidal at this point and I hope it doesn't come to that. Make sure you let your doctor know how your feeling.

@delilahsmommy2015 I like the idea of character building as well. money just freaks me out because all I have for the baby right now is one bottle a bathtub and a changing table. my boyfriends brother is just this mean individual and we don't like him. I've done what I can for him but he just shits on me. @mmora I have my doctors appointment on the 11 and will bring it up for sure. I just think its an overwhelming amount of stress at this point and how I'm going to handle things. knowing that I get to know the sex of my baby on the 11 has been my light tonight...its so close!