Trigger. Lost baby

Went in for my 20 week check up and found out our son had passed away. Nothing was wrong, my pregnancy has been going great. I'm so numb right now. I'll he delivering him later this week. I don't want to do this. I don't want to do this. Not before Christmas. How am I'm going to tell my kids?? My dear sweet baby boy. Why did this happen?

When did everyone find out baby's gender. I want my dr to give me ultrasound this week when I go I'm 17 weeks but I think he is Going to make me wait until I'm like 20. I'm so impatient I wanna know now so I can start shopping lol

Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no,

his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me...

The Chinese gender predictor says I'm having a girl so I'm having a girl😂 I really don't know until next month BUT I'm going with it. (Only cus I want a girl)

So I'm 9w2d Pregnant And I Know I'm Suppose To Wait Till I'm 10 Weeks To Try This Test But I Did It. This Is A Boy Result Correct? how Many Of You Have Done This And It Was Correct?