post partum depression has taken a toll on me... I can't even take a shower cuz the moment I do, everything hits me and I just wanna give up and start my self harming again.... been exactly 1 year since I did, and the thoughts are getting worse. I don't want to hurt her but myself is another story....I hate this.....
Just look at her now. Im sure tye same love and amazement you have for her now is the same you had when she was first born. Its ok. dont worry. you have the rest of your life to make beautiful memories with her. cherish that.
everyone around me tells me to talk to them and I try, but they all think my PPD is about having her and its not. I can't remember my first 48 hours after having her, I had to have an emergency c section and can't remember her. what happens when she asks me about my first thought and moment with her? I can't give her an answer.
Have you prayed sug??? I'm praying with you! Right now!