just feel super depressed. literally in tears right now. nothing I do or say seems to be going right. sometimes I wished…

Amen!!!

that is so true!! @babyboolala things are already starting to look up for me :)

Your hopes and prayers will be answered! The Sun always shines after the rain 😘😊

thank you @babyboolala I've made it this far and don't feel like quitting now. :) I just hope the sun shines a little brighter for me

@14emathews

Well thank God! And you're welcome! And remember babe suicide is a permanent choice to a temporary situation... There is a young lady who is going through all will go through what you have gone through and your job is to help her! Stick around God has a plan for you I'm sure of it 😘😘😘 @wyattsmommy91 Same for you you're already helping each other right now ❤💕💕❤

@babyboolala thank you! I hope things will be better in the morning. I can feel that they will be :)

Ah!!! omg we could be friends when I come down here haha. I'll be back in February :) yeah my friends up north ask where my vacation home is and I just say Orlando so its easier for them to figure out haha. he says he has a bottle of ciroc and three bottles of wine and i said please don't drink all that and all he said is OK :( and thank you I hope tonight gets better :)

Praying for you honey right now! This too shall pass! Joy comes in the morning 😘😘

ooh ok gotcha I live in clermont that's why I asked when I saw it most ppl don't even know where clermont fl.is lol. 😊 I hope he stops drinking tonight for u but it's a good thing he has calmed down. hope ur night continues to.look up!

@wyattsmommy91 no I don't live here sadly. I actually live in Harrison Township Michigan. my family has a house here in clermont Florida and when I got this app it put me at this location. I don't know how to change it so I don't confuse people

thank you guys so much! your advice has helped me tremendously! <3 he seems to have calmed down from his stages of panic but he's still drinking which bothers me. not only is he underage but I grew up with an alcoholic uncle for a while :/ (my dad took care of his brother) see I'm not one of the yelling types. I'm more of the sit there and cry and apologize so you'll talk to me...which is horrible! but slowly I'm learning to stick my input in there. and yes I really really hope my little one is a boy. I just want to know already so I can start buying things and make a safari nursery. I have all these things planned out for a boy Lmao but nothing for a girl...oops

random question just looked at ur profile do u live in Clermont fl?

that's always gonna be our fear that we can't give our little ones what they need or want we are gonna be moms but he needs to reassure u just as u reassure him.he will be a great dad. he probably is scared he won't be able to.provide for u and baby or his job isn't gonna b good enough or not being able to give baby everything baby wants or needs that's what makes us parents but he needs to see u r just as scared and worried as much as he is and y'all need to.lean on each other not butt heads or one makes the other feel bad that won't help the situation just makes it worse he has to see this or u have to speak up and yell him ur fears as well maybe he will stop lashing out on u

@14emathews, you're welcome. I only had one as well I was 24 1/2 weeks..they never told me how much he weighed so I was so scared. I have been small my whole life too lol I'm 5'5 and weighed 104 lbs so I know that worry..expect my boyfriend is small as well lol he's 5'4 1/2 and 120 pounds. I hope you get a little boy!! (: but I think as long as you eat healthy and take prenatal pills your baby will be fine! (: & I'm sure you'll get more ultrasounds since your baby was so small then. only 3ish weeks until you can find out? out here its 16 weeks to know the gender.

@wyattsmommy91 thank you so much! see I think I should move in to the hospital for like a month or so because me with something so fragile as a little baby scares me. I'm not afraid of making the mistakes like putting a onesie on backwards haha but what if there's something I can't give my little one? that just terrifies me. and I know my boyfriend is a little scared as well but he is coming to terms with it better. hell talk to my belly and tell it secrets that mommy can't know about. hell rub my tummy and lay by it. he's going to be a great father I just wish he had a little more faith in himself

yeah its scary for sure I'm 23 and I'm lost I don't know what to do or how to handle things but maybe when the baby comes he will realize how great he is gonna do and that things always work out just remember everything happens for a reason and nothing is ur fault hang in there and keep ur head up!

thank you @tavarusmommy21 I've only had one ultrasound so far and that's when I was six weeks along. I'm 13 now. I want a little boy so bad!!! I'm a little worried about the weight/size. I've been underweight all my life and when I became pregnant I was only 95lbs. I'm only 5foot3. my boyfriend on the other hand is 6foot8 and weighs waaaay more than I do haha. I just hope my little one is healthy

so true @wyattsmommy91 I'm terrified. were both only 18. he's a senior in high school and I just dropped out of college after only one semester. I just wish I was back home with him so we could talk in person and be our normal goofy selves. I feel like he thinks he has to do this on his own but I've been telling him I'll be here right by his side. we shouldn't be worrying about things until they happen but one of us seems to a lot.

it does. give it time a baby is a big change and like u said he is probably scared maybe when stuff has calmed down tell him he isn't alone cause I'm sure u r scared too and reassure him things will be ok maybe he will see this and try to talked to u instead of taking it out on u.

@tavarusmommy21 I really really hope so! I just need a job so I can take care of my little family and get my condo some furniture. and I hope my baby is born on July 4th. my doctor at first said July 3rd and my first ultrasound said July 4th but I took that baby prediction quiz last night and it said the baby won't be here until July 6th :/

@wyattsmommy91 2014 was a hell of a year for us, but we grew and hes changed a lot for me. so I see progress. its just it really sucks when he hurts me. he tells me "I'm too beautiful to cry." but he's the reason behind my tears most of the time. like I understand he's really nervous about our baby and it probably doesn't help I've been on vacation for so long but it just hurts when the one you love takes a jab at you.

@14emathews, aww see it will be a much better year! with your boyfriend, baby and condo! so much to look forward too! (: that'd be an awesome birth date!

men are dumb. I always say sorry first take the blame and own up to my mistakes I find evidence of his indiscretions on his phone and its my fault still or he did nothing wrong. maybe if u put ur foot down he might straighten up or u may have to.leave until.he changes to show him u deserve to b treated better

thanks @tavarusmommy21 I hope 2015 is much better than 2014. 2014 was crap for me. I'm looking forward to 2015 as I just bought this beautiful condo that I'm moving my boyfriend into with me and hopefully my little one will pop out on July 4th :)

@wyattsmommy91, I always take the blame for things. hell give me the silent treatment when he's mad and then I can't take it so I'm first to say sorry. ALWAYS.

that's really good advice @lp1988727 I know he's the dad but he's still mad because when we broke up in the fall I slept with someone else. then my boyfriend and I got back together and at the end of the month I found out I was pregnant. I know its not college boys. I will bet on my soul its my boyfriends and for a while I thought we moved on from the whole thing but one of his stupid friends brought it up

yeah its hard not to feel like u r to blame but remember there is more to it u are a easy target to blame he feels bad about something or feels bad about himself so he needs to cause the pain he feels to someone else and he has chosen u it sounds like hopefully he talks to u about what's bothering him instead of making u feel like u did something

thank you @wyattsmommy91 I just don't know what's put him in this funk. and now he's drinking which he promised me he would never do. I'm just at a loss. all day today things were fine and in the span of ten minutes it feels everything's fallen apart

I'm sorry u feel that way u aren't alone I am in the same boat as u I hope y'all get past this u have a beautiful baby who will need u don't let anyone make u feel like u can't do anything or break ur spirit its hard to repair once shattered

thank you @lp1988727 its just really hard right now because my boyfriend whom I love with every piece of me is dragging me down. he's worried he won't be a good dad and he's also mad that one of his guy friends keeps saying he might not be the dad.

nooo don't say that ): I'm sorry you feel that way. I honestly feel like that sometimes too but you matter. the world needs you. you were brought here for a reason! (: I hope you feel better soon!! 2015 will be better!!