You are right to seek help, just being able to sit down and talk to someone about what is on your mind... Someone who is trained how to listen... It can a help a lot! Just reading some of the comments here is hard because it's so clear that so many people just don't understand... Whenever you feel like that maybe try using your daughters as your thought stopper... But that's a short term fix. You should find someone to talk to. Your not a terrible mom for feeling the way you do, in fact you should be proud you can make it through the day. Everyday there are people who can't do it! To be there for your girls you have to take care of yourself, that means mentally as well as physically. And your mental state is very important! Your a lot stronger than you think! If you ever need someone to talk to, let me know and I can try to help you through the feelings... I have felt those same feelings and had those same thoughts

Remember why you fell in love with God in the first place! And get back to that...

I have gotten back into church and I wonder if everything I've been going through was gods way of leading me back to him. I fell out of church for a few years @babyboolala

Booboo... Far too many people love you for you to even consider such a thought! Your mom would never want that for you, your babies would never be the same without you there to teach them and guide them! Your joy keeps them happy! Don't wipe the smiles off their faces forever !! Remember these are temporary problems they will not be forever! This too shall pass. Pray, read your Bible, and look to a stronger power to strengthen you in your weakness!❤💕💕❤

Yeah lol Braylynn woke up from her nap and I changed her and played with her before she got hungry and she just smiled at me so big it made me feel alot better haha. Idk how it did but it did @lp1988727

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@lp1988727, the doctor did put me on meds but they don't help at all. and @babyboolala I could never commit it but sometimes it crosses my mind. I guess it's bc of my cousin doing it but idk.

Sweetheart, suicide as a permanent solution to a temporary problem! Also statistics prove that children who have parents that committed suicide have a greater risk of committing suicide themselves, think about your babies! You wouldn't want them do that! I'm praying for you right now honey! 😘😘😘 @acjones186

I've been there after birth of first daughter and all I went through with her dad and abuse, leaving him etc and if u ever want to talk I'm here whenever 7085392537 anytime you want

Things pile up and stress can get to you - in NO way is this meant to shame you but as a daughter of a parent who committed suicide - GET HELP. Your children need you and they will never understand. Many times simply an adjustment in brain chemistry can effect how we handle stresses. There is no shame in any mental disorder people get sick no one judges you for having a cold and this is the same thing. Your body is just reacting differently to your life's stress. Holidays especially are hard for us when there have been large changes such as the loss of SO. Wishing you the best!

suicide should even be crossing your mind especially if you have babies ,who's going to take care of them when your gone ? be there for them?! spoil them? love them? be there when they need there mom the most!! pray and get help from family if not friends. your babies need you.

yes please seek help hunny, if not for than definitely do for your baby, you need to be your best you for your child!

I'm going through alot to.. I can't say I understand your situation but I understand pain and I know it hurts, especially with the passing of your mother and brother but I'm pretty sure they wouldn't want to see you down like this.. you have to continue to pray and keep your head up and live for them and your girls. Just keep praying and try to keep your faith and trust in God. I'm praying for you too! @acjones186

It's not just him tho its other stuff I've been through. my brother never comes to visit and we used to be so close he lives 18 hours away. my cousin that was like my brother killed him self 6 years ago my mom passed away 5 years ago. I just feel lost and outta place. I love my girls their the only reason I'm still fighting. I just don't know whay to do any more. @030815

I haven't had my baby yet but your girls need you more than anything... there's plenty more men out there and if your girls dad doesn't come back then you know that your one is still out there and everything will be okay. keep your head up love 😘😘😘 it's going to all work out in your favor!