Birth Plan Rant

I used to be all about getting an epidural, but after research and thinking about it more I want to have an unmedicated birth (this is my first baby). What annoys me is when I say that I'm going to TRY my hardest to have a natural and unmedicated birth people always feel the need to say that I'm crazy or that I'm going to change my mind when I get in that position. Or that epidurals are the best. I do realize that plans change, but why can't people be supportive and encouraging?

Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no,

his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me...

Well sleeping in the spare room on the hardwood floor because the husband and I are fighting will probably destroy my back, but I can't sleep downstairs on the couch because my son still wakes in the middle of the night... hoping I can get at least a couple hours of comfortable sleep 😕

I stg if she's not here and I haven't dilated by Wednesday I'm getting induced !!! 😡I can't take it no more I can never sleep I'm always in pain i can barely ever breathe ! DAMMIT IM OVER IT I just can't do it no more I GIVE UP!!!!!😡

Really hating today as I get further along in my pregnancy the more angry I get. I have become very resentful of some of my husband's chocies. Anyone else feel this way?