It's called postpartum depression. Talk to a doctor about it

My mom says its just a fade and it will go by I'm just having baby blues and need rest I do love him but at the same time I don't

well have you thought of adoption agencies? it's not fair to the baby if you're not gonna love her/him like a mother should. Maybe a family member can take the baby. its just an innocent baby that needs love && since "you're stuck with it" maybe you need to find the baby someone who will love them

Ya but there's a problem women say when you baby comes out and you hold it you fall in love with it deeply this is sad to say but that didn't happen to me my world went black and I hated every thing I feel like I can't give him enough an I feel like somebody else can more then me it's terrible to say this but I don't want a baby at this age and I actually never wanted one it's bad to say that but now I'm stuck with it

Being honest it's probably not the best mind set but seriously girl... I can't imagine how hard being single at this time is. But just remember that you created that little life and that little baby you hold every day and walk alone with down the street... He's going to love you because you gave him life and you are there for him. I suggest concentrating completely on your baby and maybe try meeting other moms in your area :) it's okay to cry and be upset, you need to allow yourself to move forward so that you and your son can be happy! Good luck and start by looking for one good thing a day to concentrate on! Maybe a smile from baby or a cute cuddly moment! If there is more than one just keep listing off things that make you happy!