Okay so I have a small family 3 aunts & uncles & a grandma thats the bitch from hell & I only talk…

Okay so I have a small family 3 aunts & uncles & a grandma thats the bitch from hell & I only talk to one aunt & uncle. Everybody else in my family has done me soo wrong from kicking my family out to calling the police on my boyfriend for no reason. I hate them all. & the aunt I dont talk to is 4 months pregnant im 3 months. They've tormented me all my life I was always the bad kid i got kicked outtta school smoked weed & drank went through my rebellious stage for a good while & was always expected to be the one to fuck up & not amount to anything. Ive done bad things but thats what they're always going to look at me like. The fuck up. I dont spend any holidays with them not even if my mom & siblings are there. Ive had a bad life bc of them. & todays my moms birthday they came over & ive spent the entire time in the basement. Im an outcast. But not to my mom she loves my & so do my little siblings. I was gonna give her her birthday card with the ultrasound picture in it but now it feels like a mistake. Theres one hour left of her birthday & they're still here. I dont even wanna go upstairs & give it to her. They're gonna find out eventually & im forever gonna be laughed at & known as the fuck up for being pregnant. I dont wanna do it anymore. I feel ashamed now.