Found out my baby had no heart beat on the 19th. Had D&C yesterday. My husband showed up but found comfort in his girlfriend afterwards. I feel every thing. Vicious anger to rehabilitating pain. I'm trying to keep busy but all I feel is Anger. No sadness, Just Anger and a appetite for risky behaviors. My older babies are away in Jamaica away from this toxic air. Thank God. But.... I don't know what to do. Drinking doesn't make it better. It takes the edge off but..... Nothing makes sense......

Sigh....levels went higher.... Couldn't leave without insulin....here we go🙈

Blood sugar levels at 14....
So..... I just found out that I have diabetes. I have an appointment with the specialist tomorrow or Tuesday. I'm wondering if this is gestational or if I could have been diabetic before?? Does the level give any insight to that or am I just going to have to find out after pregnancy if my levels are still high?

My doctor has me spun around... So I went to do the confirming blood test and I told him that I took several at home tests. One that included how far long, which it said 2-3 wks. When I said that to my doc he says...no can't be? Doesn't ask me when I took the test or anything. Then he says you get pregnant in like a couple days?? 
I track my period and the dates of conception that came up were the dates of my most fertile time??? 
So I don't know and no I didn't ask in the moment unfortunately. ...

Hi! This will be baby #4... Unexpected but a blessing.