turns out not pregnant.. had a miscarriage though.

Today in getting tested for real and i am excited because they may throw in a ultrasound scan I can't wait to see my baby. I know in only five weeks but I've been working towards this for months and now in finally having my chance. I get to be a mommy..
this is big and I'm beyond excited. and I can't. wait. I have been gaining wait like crazy. and now im really sure. 7 days late its time folks.

snacking on peaches and wishing I had a heater. but got lots if blankets and a warm husband next to me. we are waiting for my next check to come so that I can get us into a place. Hubby is so sick. I hope its from sympathy.

Im camping tonight. got evicted by my mom. she even stole $300 from my purse before doing so. What a pain. The police won't do a thing about it. She already paid her rent with it. That is so mean of her.

Plans changed again!😡 This sucks ! I have to wait until after the first to get the test because The doctor wants to have me wait until he has his ultrasound machine fixed. well I guess things are kinda good because I can now relax and just take a home test anyway. I mean the ovulation test was a searing yes. but now I just need the money for a test. Mm.. I can totally do this. But for now I am heads back to my house so I can get my schedule updated.. In no rush really. I have alto to worry about...

DHS is still giving me the run around. sending me to different offices. first union St then Clip and now back to union. just to pick up my Medicaid card? really? I have to get tested today and this is just not okay. I really hate when my schedule is changed.

I am so nervous about testing today. I mean I know Im 5 days late and all but Im just nervous it will turn out like the other times I got tested. I am just hoping I don't go and just start bleeding. I hate that. Please god let this be the day I find out Im finally preggers.
I mean Im so ready for a baby but everytime I get my hopes up I start my period. but now this may be the wreak deal. so please girls cross your fingers.

Lastnight was horrible I was up all night. on the toilet or in the shower just trying so hard to kick the nausea. its horrible. I hope it doesn't last long because I have a babyshower to gobto tonight and I don't want to steel the spotlight with the girls finding out Im preggers. It would crush me.

ugh.. test day for me.. I feel sick.. I can't even eat without feeling like Im going to blow chunks..

five weeks in and already in a nuisance. I trip on a piece of rug and spill powdered potatoes all over the floor..