Excited for the fireworks tonight and of course the FOOD!!!!😊❤🎊 HAPPY FOURTH OF JULY! Hope everyone has a safe and happy fourth of July!(:

Yay 21.... Obviously I can't drink though 😂 anyways, cannot wait til 11:15 today so I can see everything going on at the baby doc and see what the next steps are...CANNOT WAIT! Nervous and Excited!!!😊😊😊😍😍😍❤❤❤🎊🎁🎊🎁

First baby doctor appointment and ultrasound in the morning... I cannot wait to meet my love!!!!😊😊😊😍😍😍❤❤❤ And on my birthday too...BEST BIRTHDAY EVER!!!!!😊😍❤🎁🎊

Pregnancy yoga and exercises are done 😊❤😍😱

Okay...so according to everything I'm pretty sure I'm near 14 wks pregnant...I haven't been to a doctor yet and wondering if I need to go straight to an obgyn or a health Dept first... I just took a test yesterday but knew before but was in denial due to my first being a miscarriage with twins...

That moment when you don't know you're pregnant with your rainbow baby until you're going through the miscarriage... just passed the baby 2 days ago and now passing the rest of the fluids and purple/brownish discharges... I HATE this!

So Christmas was yesterday for me and a co-worker of mine, who also had a miscarriage, had posted something about thinking of those of those who can't be with us on Christmas and I just balled... afterwards, I had a wonderful Christmas though. It was just hard cause I was picturing myself with a big belly full of twins and instead I was empty and 2 pieces of me are now missing... I know they were with me in spirit though... it was just difficult...

Fertility window open in two days? I think so😊 Trying for my rainbow baby(or babies)

Thinking starting back on prenatals might help me become pregnant with my rainbow baby (or babies) faster... any suggestions??!

One thing I've come to realize after my miscarriage is that I'll have my good days, as well as, my bad days. I know my amazing fiancé is always here for me, but He can't really understand exactly what I'm going through. Sometimes I feel empty and sometimes I'm scared to become pregnant again cause of fear of repeat. I am excited to begin this new journey and try again. I will probably be scared until I'm in the 2nd trimester, but I really want this.