Ok so I'm hoping and praying i may have conceived again I've been feeling very nauseous the past few days and I was vomiting yesterday and every time I attempted to move or walked around it made me wanna vomit all I could do was lay down in the bed to get it settled I finally was able to get up today still pretty nauseous but i finally ate and got fluids in and so far I just feel slightly nauseous and I'm having the same vaginal changes I did before still kinda early tho so I will just pray for...

Ugh my bf is still involuntarily rubbing and holding my belly we were in the grocery store and I noticed the entire time there he would reach and shield or just rub my stomach and I ask him you keep forgetting I lost the baby I hate it a 1000 times but on another note making baby #2 so far has been AMAZING so I'm hoping for positive results in the months to come

Apparently I'm suppose to just get over having a miscarriage in a freakin week and sit alone at home I thought I had support from two of the most important ppl in my life whom I have completely uprooted my life for its nothing i regret but I never step on someone when they are down I can't even properly grieve because I feel wrong to do so and I don't wanna get sucked back into depression It took me to long to get back but I have never felt so incomplete

Just found out I miscarried Tuesday I went in for my first ultrasound and left very crushed and confused I feel very isolated even tho there are many women in my same shoes I wouldn't wish this pain and emptiness on my worst enemy it's hard to grieve when everyone seems to want you to just get over it or wants you to look at things as if shit happens which I totally get but damn it's only been two days I'm just looking fwd to trying again but i know it won't be easy