Hi everyone. I’m about to be extremely vulnerable, and I want the most genuine and honest feedback, if you don’t mind. My husband and I have been together for 7yrs, married for 6. We have 5yr old & 2yr old little girls together. In the very beginning of our relationship I was extremely insecure, and we were both very young (20 when we got married). He watched porn and hid it the first 2yrs of our marriage. It damaged me to my very core. I understand that doesn’t effect every woman the same, but for me it was crushing. I stayed with him though, because I’m a Christian and divorce seemed so vile to me. Fast forward to months ago, I found out he was checking other females out on FB (he has done this many times sense he stopped watching porn) and this is another thing I hate because I gave birth to his children and I deserve to be the only woman he looks at sexually. All this time, he has what I would call “soft” narcissistic tendencies. He has never hit me, but he has charged toward me. He speaks to me like I’m a child. He controls me in some ways and he is a hot head. His character is not one I like to be associated with anymore because of how he speaks to people (he’s not very kind). Our marriage is sexless, and on my end it’s loveless. We have so many good memories. This man could be such a better man, but he never sticks with it. It’s only for so long and then it’s back to the same ol thing. I know God works miracles. I know He could fix my marriage. My husband is a Christ follower as well but he doesn’t love me the way the Bible teaches. He doesn’t do anything to prove to me that he wants this other than what he says. He does the bare minimal when it comes to our marriage. Like I said, we have so many good memories, he has been good to me in a lot of ways, but I’m starting to feel like the bad is outweighing the good. I don’t want my children to witness a bad marriage anymore. He doesn’t entertain the thought of counseling at all. I feel like if he wanted this that bad, he would make the call and initiate it. I’m just done making all the moves. Honestly, I feel so stuck and afraid of the unknown since he has been my normal for 7yrs. I just need advice. I need to know if staying is worth It. I have all the advice in the world from people who know us, but I want advice from people who don’t.