Трудно сдержать злость после драк в 20 лет: как стать спокойной мамой и не сорваться на людях? Помогите!

In my 20s I fought alot and I mean alot, I was ready for a fight when ever where ever I would even fight men but one day it hit me , Im a mother I cant be like this I have to change because I dont want my kids to act like this and end up in jail and also I was worried I would embarrass my kids so I became a Christian and removed myself from people and situations that will cause me to get mad.... But its hard so hard! For example we decided to eat at Burger King and the staff was harassing my family first they were watching us eat the whole time and I mean staring then one of them started recording me, we just packed up and left. That was 2 nights ago and its still on my mind because Im mad I didnt do anything.... Anybody else like this?