Father’s Day is approaching and I feel this in my soul.. every year is the same and I get extreme pressure from my mom to show up and be there to do something nice for my Dad. We aren’t close, we don’t talk unless I go to my parent’s house or they come here for an occasion unless he needs something then I’ll get a random text.
It’s always kinda been put on me that “I don’t try to have a relationship either” but now that I am a mom I couldn’t imagine not trying to fix what I’ve broken or not talking to my child to see how they are, I feel it’s a parents job to step up and be a parent not the child’s job. But anywho I just needed to get that off my chest somewhere safe.
This is hard. I feel parents should always look and make an effort to be there for their children. No matter the age. But some relationships may never be repaired. And that is okay.
I’ve come to terms that it’s been since I was 8 years old, and I’ll be 32 this year I don’t think we will ever reconnect. It’s just hard cause he is a part of my life still because my parents are still married and I am not one to pretend the way she wants me too😖