Anyone else feel like everything is out of control?
I’ve been back to work for almost a year. Recently I got a promotion to an absolutely perfect job. Mon-fri 9-5 office job with great pay.
And I woke up one day and quit. Because my head to so full of anxiety. I just can’t get my shit together and I feel like a total failure.
One of the things an absolute meditation rock star guru named Sharon Salzberg (who had an absolute shit childhood and adolescence) teaches is about how life is a series of events that flow and happen, and frequently things done turn out how we thought they would, and the most skillful thing we can learn is to simply begin again without judgment and anger towards ourselves because it takes energy and time stewing it over. It isn't a skillful response.
That bit of information has really helped me. I was always a huge analyzer and rehasher and in the end it was almost always a complete waste of my time.