Trying really hard to sleep. But i can't. I'm meeting my mother and 3 of my siblings after not seeing them in 6 years…

Trying really hard to sleep. But i can't. I'm meeting my mother and 3 of my siblings after not seeing them in 6 years and them not wanting to speak with me for the last 3 almost 4 years.... to put this into perspective, my mother has never met my daughter at all except the day she was born on video chat which lasted no longer than 3 minutes. I'm not bringing my kids to this meeting because I don't want to put my kids through the pain of having a "grandmother" only when its convenient for her. They deserve so much more than that.