So its been a long time since I've been on here. So much has happened. I don't know if I need to vent or what but I'm so sick of being called a rapes by my own husband because he has sex apnea and every once in a while it happens and i don't know what is happening until he has already inside me and almost about to cum. Every time I don't stop him and wake him up from the act I get called a rapist and told he will call the police and have me arrested for rape and throwing in jail. When it first started happening I had known clue that it happened. Hell he never brought it up until it happened. At first he didn't have a problem with it happened but the last two years it has changed hell our lives and marriage has changed after i cheating on him. I have been trying to find a way to make things better for us but nothing i do helps. I don't think we will ever get passed it.I have suggested we go to counseling anything to help but he says no. We are about to have our 6th child together. 4 before I cheated and 2 after. I know that us having 2 more kids is not the best thing we needed but it happened and I love everyone of my children. I have told him that we need to get a divorce and he says ok but i can't have any one of our children so I continue to stay praying everyday that things will be better and it doesn't. Im at my wit's end. Im halfway out the door and half in. Im not losing or leaving my children with him. Don't get me wrong hes a great dad. And he was a great husband. I just don't know what to do or say or anything anymore more maybe yall moms can help or give me some advice.