Today I got the biggest surprise of my life!

Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no,

his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me...

I Have Too Peeeeee Soooooooooo Bad. But I'm Trying To Hold It For My Doctor Appt in 12Mins. Fuck My Life. 😞😒😦😩

I'm back where I was four years ago feeling MORE suicidal than ever!!! my whole fucking life is falling apart. people were right I fucked up my entire life. I can't trust anyone I can't do this. I need to go.

My son, Adrian, was born a stillborn at 18 weeks and 5 days on May 19th, 2015 at 5:40 pm. It was the most beautiful, life changing moment of my life and his memory lives on with me and my loved ones. It's been the most devastating 48 hours of my life but I thank God for blessing me with his life. I'm officially the mother of an angel and I can't wait to see you again.

Rest in peace, my beautiful baby boy.