I've always lived in the north east. I've moved around the NE, just NY and NJ. It's cold there, and expensive, and I've considered moving on many occasions. Interestingly, I've always been aware that when moving, there are some places I would not be welcomed, even in the NE. Or rather, I'd feel as though I'm not welcomed.

I couldn't see myself living in Texas or Tennessee, or Louisiana, etc, for reasons that I believe are glaringly obvious. Reasons rooted in fear, the pursuit of happiness, and the will to survive and live to be the ripe old age of a million! Not just for me, but for my family too, and especially for the male individuals in my family. Just move to a quiet, ain't nothing jumping off out here type of place.

Then I always think, "well, that place IS safe... but, is it safe for me," 😩 I wanna go live in rural Georgia, that has a LCOL (low cost of living,) or take up residence in a suburb of Kentucky (lol)... actually, I want to move anywhere, I want to be able to move anywhere without the fear of being harmed. Without the fear of... living in fear.

Sometimes I think I'm crazier than I am afraid, lol. I think fear has been moved up a notch, just 1 notch, higher than crazy since I've become a mom. It's my responsibility to give my child a childhood. I'm responsible for always trying to make sure my child is safe, and happy and fulfilled. And that alone makes me tell my crazy to calm down, makes me take a lot less risks than I normally would. It makes me think things through more completely, and consider and reconsider, before I take a dive, head first, hoping I don't hit pavement, or concrete, but... water.

I think I'll risk it though, Kentucky, Kansas, Texas, Georgia, these might very well be great places to raise a family and grow... if not, we tried 🤷🏿‍♀️

Poor spelling, bad grammar, undertones, run on sentences, incomplete thoughts, complaining, circumlocution, excessive use of ellipses (I like using these 😂)? They're all probably there, oh well 😂