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Every single night I havent been going to bed till past 2. And wake up at 5 or 6. Yesturday it was…

Every single night I havent been going to bed till past 2. And wake up at 5 or 6. Yesturday it was 4. I'm so sick of this. I told my daughters dad who stays in the back room of my house that if he comes off of work and doesnt pitch in like usual he doesnt. Here and there but it's like he isnt even a parent then wonders why the girls and my son dont take him seriously and go to me especially my son. Told him I will leave this house tomorrow. Because he'll have nothing BUT to be a parent. I know he can be because when I'm sick not feeling well he steps it up most the time. I'm up always with at least one kid. Sometimes up and down every hour or 2. Like last night. I'm done saying this happens and expressing myself. Now it's time I make moves. Told him also how I will sleep in my car the whole weekend or get a hotel just so I can sleep because i need it!! Stay at home mom is no fuxking joke. Plus being everyone's maid 3 or 4x a day etc.its completely draining and not fair on me

Sorry for the long post and for the rant

I'm constantly cleaning decluttering taking care of the outside which needs a lot ofwork. My whole house does and I'm doing it alone with 2 babies up my ass. It feels as if he gets off work at 3 takes him 2 hours to get home because hes running around doing what he wants. Doesnt help out when he gets here. And I usually have to take the kids where ever I go at least one but most the time both of the babies. Even when hes here. And if I'm gone longer then an hour I get bitched at (only if I go alone) so it's not just the helping out thing it's all of it really. I just dont know what's right and what's not if I'm asking to much. Being he works and I stay home with the kids. I just know when I worked and only had one baby at the time I was literally on my feet all day and driving around an hour early in the morning to drop people off and right after work to pick them up. Still came home cleaned the mess. Made dinner and take care of my kids bed time routine. Alone.