Smh I still have a long way to go but all I’ve been doing lately is watching prenatal classes and…

Smh I still have a long way to go but all I’ve been doing lately is watching prenatal classes and labour and deliver vids. I just want a Vback so bad I know things may not always go as planned but i just wanna experience a normal labour deliver and hold my baby right after. I’ve had such traumatic deliveries with my both my previous pregnancies. Anyone have a successful Vback? What did you do differently?