i've spent most afternoon trying to hold it together to hide my fear, frustration and worry. lettin…

i've spent most afternoon trying to hold it together to hide my fear, frustration and worry. lettin a few tears out to maybe make it better but sucking it back up so jerri or kenny doesn't worry. all while asked 500 million questions. no it doesn't have to do with bed rest being in the picture yeah it'll suck but whatever needs to be done i'll do if that mean my house is a complete wreck cause i have to take it easy then so be it that is the least of my worries. trust me i want these two to keep baking as long as possible. it's the worry and fear of what could happen or what could go wrong. it's being frustrated because i told myself this pregnancy would go smooth no worries like i had when pregnant before yet once again i'm sittin here worrying and getting told "this is going wrong" and i know it wasn't jerri fault back then and it's not the babies faults now it's just frustrating. it's worrying if i'm even going to be okay. i know every pregnant woman goes through worry with pregnancy. or the fear i might have to deal with my MIL being here every single day (totally jk lol) and it's even more frustrating getting asked 500 million questions like i committed a crime so with that being said i'm taking a little break for little bit until i can get my mindset back on track maybe few days weeks months idk and focus on taking care of myself and keeping my mind busy. don't even know why i'm explaining myself really but here y'all go.