It started raining during the drive portion of my motorcycle exam and I freaked out. Not because I…

It started raining during the drive portion of my motorcycle exam and I freaked out. Not because I can’t ride a bike, but because I had the extreme thought of hurting myself before my husband healed and can drive again. I’m a mom first and foremost and right now we need the driver to stay safe because there’s no one to pick up my extra slack. I suddenly slowed down way too much, slowed the speed of the class and the instructor had a talk with me. We agreed that I’ll come back once my husband is weight bearing again and that thought isn’t causing me anxiety. In the meantime, I do have my bike and a permit to ride during the day. Hubby ordered me traffic cones. I’m going to practice everything I learned and what I would be learning today in an empty parking lot in the meantime.

At first I was mad at myself. In my mind I’m a perfectionist and that wasn’t supposed to happen. But I stopped and checked myself. Motorcycle riding is serious business. Your mind has to be right because it’s you against the cars and trucks out there. I shouldn’t be out there in the rain this anxious. I have the ability to practice for a month and come back confident. When I go back, my turns will be tighter, my weaving on point and not afraid of hard braking.

I’ll still get this license! I passed my written test. I could go to DMV and take my test now but everyone should take this course before they get on the road so I’m still going to finish what I started. In the meantime all these empty lots around here have me excited!