I’m really struggling with my emotions right now. I’m 8 weeks pregnant. This was very very unplanned as we both agreed…

I’m really struggling with my emotions right now. I’m 8 weeks pregnant. This was very very unplanned as we both agreed after our youngest was born that we were done. We own our house and don’t really have enough room for another child. I mean we could move our oldest into the 4th bedroom but then we lose our guest room. My in-laws live pretty far away and stay here a couple times a year for about 2-3 weeks each time. My husband works afternoons/ evenings so I’d be by myself with 4 kids almost every night. I don’t know if I could handle that. It’s hard enough trying to help my oldest with his homework, teaching my 4 year old his sight words and taking care of a clingy baby all while making dinner. How would I handle a newborn too? I’m bleeding and it’s pretty bad sometimes so I can’t get attached. Sorry if this is all over the place 🙁