Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no,

his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me...

This is too hard.....

The lost of my Ellie.

Being kicked out of my exes

Being a single mom to 2 kids

No job

No car

Soon to be homeless

Nobody to help me

Mental and physical health issues

I'm just ready to end it all. The pain is too much. I'm starting to have panic attacks everyday. Especially when my kids are sleeping or more so when I'm by myself.

I can't take it anymore! Haley (yes my 1mth old and no I wasn't able to go through this "joy" of nursing my older daughter, Molly) has been screaming non stop for 6hrs! All she wants to do is eat and I can't have her attached to me all day, everyday! She has wanted to eat every hr on the hr for the past 3hrs! I put her in her room so I don't scream at her but I just can't take it!

Okay Mama's. I've been too depressed for too long. I'm trying something new to help myself out of it. I, although not go at it, love doing make up. It's calming to me. It's fun for me. I use to wear the minimum of mascara and chapstick and now I don't even do that. My depression got to a point where I stopped shaving, brushing my hair, washing my face, showering, brushing my teeth and more. I stopped dressing up and..caring about myself. I'm still....working on things. But this is another way to...

So how long did it take you ladies to conceive??? Was it months? Years? And what are some helpful tips that will help me I'm in my 4th month of trying....