i can’t sleep. all i can think about is the bail hearing on thursday where ill see nikki’s murderer.…

i can’t sleep. all i can think about is the bail hearing on thursday where ill see nikki’s murderer. i need to be present, i need to support nikki’s family and show the judge how impacted we are by her unnecessary death and help get her some kind of justice. but another part of me just wants to hide from it all and pretend that there’s still hope that she’ll just show up one day, alive and breathing. it’s all just too real.